Summer

The summer's going well, I think.

Oh wow. I just got the taste of crusty blood in my mouth. I'm not going to go check a mirror to see what was on my lips.

Anywho. It's been nice, yes. I leave tomorrow for my favorite town (Vermilion, Ohio) and then I'm going to a quilt show with my mom. She doesn't really quilt, but I think the artful designs excite both me and her.

In other news, I've surrounded myself with pretty things. I don't really do anything with them, but it's nice to have them here in case I want to. I have an open set of watercolors and a sketchpad to my immediate left, my Olympus camera hanging off of my lamp, nail polish to my immediate right, pens and pencils behind the laptop screen, and a corral of blank CDs in the corner. I don't really know what I want to do with them - just the other day I kind of went nuts with the nail polish IN the sketchpad and ended up making something really cool (I kind of overdid it, if you ask me) but...

Like I've said before, it's not the same kind of creativity I've had over the last couple of months. This is different. I'm more detached from everything, and I don't really like it. But I guess I can deal. I'll have another shift in a few months and it will be over with.

I'm doing ok. I don't feel that I'm in an air-conditioned prison yet. I don't mind sleeping in until noon and getting on Tumblr for an hour before going downstairs. I'm reading all sorts of interesting things... not waiting hours before someone gets on Facebook for me to talk to. I'm more solitary than I used to be; I just don't include people in my plans or my thoughts anymore. They're always afterthoughts... except for him and her, of course. She tries to tell me that people are her God... people are my demons. I'm not sure how he feels about it, but it will come up in conversation somewhere along the way.

I Torrent'd Woodstock footage and Tommy (rock opera by the Who) so I might put one of those on to watch while I clean my room today. Blind Melon will also work... I don't have any particular ties to any of the songs but it gives a nice colorful mood.