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well. i got accepted into that thing. and i suppose i kind of didn't want to. i'll never know what isn't enough and what to improve on... though something tells me i'd be pretty disappointed if i didn't get in. so.
birthday came and went. nothing special. i was really down in the dumps over it too. 16 is a very stereotypical age... and i was all confused and nervous and depressed about how i could pull off that middle ground. you know - not be so overwhelmingly against stereotypes that i become one of those crazed Individualist people but still don't give people the wrong idea. or maybe that is impossible. people will make the assumptions they want. but i'm such a people-pleaser that i just can't accept that.
uh. what else. got a loom to make socks on. more books... great. finished Sirens of Titan today (i think) which was a real bummer. the only part i liked was about the caves of Mercury and the harmoniums. that was pretty. little blue sticky kites living off the music.
there is a lot of stuff going on right now but none of it is acceptable for a blog nobody reads, so. this is all the extra stuff.
tomorrow a friend is coming over to teach me how to knit. that will be the first person i have had over to my house since before homecoming, which was in October.
and i was just thinking. all the people with the ton of friends who have boyfriends for 10 minutes. and then the ones who don't who keep them longer. maybe the friendly people have their need of company filled by a lot of different people, so what's one person? and the friendless person (well, people, since it would have to take 2 friendless people to survive in a relationship that parasitic) get their need fulfilled from each other. and i don't know which is better to have.
tomorrow, on my day off school, i will be knitting.
i am tired. lonely, too. and that's kind of an everyday thing.