a general update

I'm a little shaky... so many things going on.  I wouldn't say I had an epiphany, but I certainly do feel much better.  Perhaps it was just confronting the problem and only furthering the stability of the old saying "it's never as bad as it seems". I feel like I can be happy again now, or at least have the capacity for it at some point down the road.

A few little relationship issues that will probably disappear soon, and nothing nobody can't talk through (double negative, yes, I am fully aware).  It's just what happens with time, that's all, the concerns that come up in a 7-month relationship... speaking of which, that anniversary is tomorrow.  Hm, just remembered :)

I sometimes wonder why things are labeled socially unacceptable to mention or talk about.  It's not like they're a newfound thing that nobody has felt or experienced or wondered about.

But yes, generally happy.  The first snow was a few days ago and I'm happy.  I'm applying for the Governor's School for the Arts sometime this week, and I'm hoping I'll get in and learn stuff and not feel so intimidated by, I dunno, life.  But I'm getting better.  Today I paid for my mom's lunch with my debit card because she forgot her wallet, and then I withdrew some munnies out of an ATM with it.  They don't ever teach you the things you really should know how to do, but I guess the point is that if they made a class out of it, most of the information would just zip right over everyone's head.  And ordering stuff online and paying bills is easy enough, and so is dealing with people on the phone and making small talk. Hurdles that I'd rather avoid, but won't kill me mid-jump.

Chamber choir concerts went wonderfully (well, not the first one, ehe) and I'm proud of myself and our group.  I really didn't feel like I belonged in it until that first time we met after school.  And we have a ton of seniors that won't be in it next year, so it'll be way different next season.  But, like with summer camp, there's a realization that maybe because none of us will ever be best friends (well, with me anyway), you can share all the stuff you like to this person that you really couldn't tell anyone else.  It's the security of not having any, I suppose.

Not much else to say... the only things on my mind are my boyfriend (and issues pertaining to that subject), GSA, choir, and getting a good history/math grade (that being in the back of my mind).  Nothing else... Growing up.  Yes, growing up is on my mind, always there because it's always happening.  Hm.